BACK TO SQUARE ONE

2012-01-03T11:17:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 2012.

looking back at 2011.
so much learnt.
so many mistakes made.
people came, and people left.
love and hurt.

i hope that 2012 will be a blast.
a new beginning for every one of us.
for you, and for me.

had house party at kenneth's place on new year's eve.
13 bottles of beer, one mac callen, and one grey goose.

2011-12-23T12:23:00.002+08:00

so used to it.
the random stuffs.

anyway, time flies,
so fast.
been half a year since we left.
been half a year since things change.
so fast, too fast.

i am still a little lost,
a little confused.
standing at the crossroad, dont know what to do.

Looking back at last year christmas,
filled with joy.
so very heartwarming.
so familar.
really.

came across this song, very touching indeed.

你答应我的我都记得
但是你却忘了你的承诺
不是说好彼此都不再联络
谁都别再犯错
是我的固执让你难过
但是分手却也无法选择

2011-12-16T13:34:00.002+08:00

one more week to christmas.
YAY. joy to the world.

i think im really dumb.
maybe abit dumb.

我就不相信我會笨到忘不了賴著不放掉!

xoxo,
thieny

2011-12-12T12:23:00.003+08:00

awesome weekends without partying. just with plenty of rest.
but, im still feeling so lethargic.

Things have been happening,
what exactly are we thinking.

it wasnt easy, i swear.
now it could be even harder?.

my mind wouldnt stop thinking,
and i just wish that i can just stop thinking about everything.
it is just too much, for me to handle.

i am having mixed feelings.
and really, this wasnt the intended outcome.

i have to move on, i have to leave.

xoxo thieny.

2011-11-28T12:13:00.004+08:00

zouk on friday with the usual bunch of peeps.
headed down to nana after that.
awesome group of people, me like!

went for a wedding dinner last night,
Cheers to SHIRLEY AND SIMON :)
have a blessed marriage, and yea, a happily ever-after :)
the dinner was held at Crowne Plaza Hotel.
the ambience, the setting was good.

weddings are so magical. :)

some of the photos taken during Boon Huat's Birthday at Beng Hiang restuarant, and ZOUK.

behind every smile, is a story that makes her frown.
the place reminds me of you.
many much misses.
candy empire, departure hall.
everything.
the tears we shed a year back.
the flight i took alone back and forth.
the promise we made, that it isnt goodbye, it is "see you later"
every little details.
how beautiful these memories are.

i still believed.
everything said.
and i am, strong like pooh.

2011-11-26T11:11:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY.
hope you had a blast, with the people close to you.
hope you are happy.
and always happy.

it feels so surreal,
feel so different.
last year at crystal jade,
last last year at chalet.
this year, we are just strangers.

i miss, all the memories.
they are really beautiful.

zhen de, zhi yao ni kuai le.
:)

xoxo,
thieny

2011-11-17T13:01:00.002+08:00

To: Anyone who come across my blog.

This is a space for me to rant, to cry, to laugh.
this is a space for me to keep my memories, to remember things.
This is a space that i can feel close to heart.

and so this is my space.
i write how i feel, what i feel.
so dont judge.

if it bothers you,
just exit the page.
that easy.

i have feelings too.
i am just not as strong as what i seem.
there is really only a certain amount of things i can bear. i can hold.
so please.

your's to keep,
so dont worry.
be very happy,
live.

xoxo,thieny

2011-11-14T13:53:00.001+08:00

Because we never really moved on, didnt we?.
or prolly me.

in me, i hold something that is so close to heart.

2011-11-10T12:53:00.003+08:00

Been so busy with school work and work.
Im losing focus and motivation.
I wanna study just full time, really.

there is only a certain amount of things i can bear.
sigh much.

the uneasy feeling is still there.
the fear, i guessed.

came across alot of photos this morning.
flashback
the board, the light sticks, the post it.
everything.
how beautiful these memories are.

its the memories that hurt, not love.

xoxo, thieny

2011-11-08T10:38:00.003+08:00

is this how uneasy you felt that time.
i feel so uneasy. so weird. i dont know how to describe what i am feeling.
i dont seem to be able to comprehend what i am suppose to feel.
i am suppose to be nonchalent about your existence, to not be affected by anything.
but yet, i feel like crying much. really.

everyone thought i was prolly okay.
but there is this sting there, still.
"im really affected" i said with a smile on my face.
"dont bull shit la" was the reply i got.
I am really affected, even if it wasnt alot, but still i am.

previously, i went over for you.
this time round, you came back, not for me.
the only constant now is change.

if everything was meant to be discarded.
give them back to me.

xoxo,thieny

2011-11-03T13:34:00.002+08:00

end of october, start of november.
It wasnt exactly good :(
My phone died on me twice.
my friend gamed a 13 wonders during mahjong.
how worst can my month gets?

OHWELL.
heading home soon pooh.
when i heard about the Quatas Strike,
i feel relieved, for a moment i thought, prolly you wont be back.
and how good will that be.
at least for me.
BUT oh well.
see you back at homeland soon.

was browsing through your photo albums.
happy faces.
bliss.
how did i manage to look at them and say "they look happy!".
i have no idea.
but i really did feel happy for you at that point of time.

big heart, i always bear that in mind.
just that, its really hard at times.
when it should be mine, the happy faces, the everything.
but its good to know, that someone close, is happy.

ni hen ai ta.
xoxo,thieny

2011-10-25T17:56:00.002+08:00

Saturday,
went for laidback luke with fellicia,
shaun tang and co.
it was pack, but the music was kinda good.
TURBULANCE. ...

Sunday,
had Xiao Long Bao buffet with casslyn, adel, joc, rat and yenhuan.
we conquerred 18 plates of Xiao long bao.
Then it was talk cock sing song for some beer.
Happy bday Cass.

Finally a public holiday tomorrow.
time for some drinks tonight. and rest.

xoxo, thieny

2011-10-16T23:15:00.002+08:00

HAPPY ADVANCED BIRTHDAY AMANDA.
cheers to 11years of friendship.
and many more years to come!
i hope you enjoyed your party, and the pouch that we got for you :)

xoxo.

seriously, need a break.
a break from severe brain block caused by excessive thinking.
a break from the reality for awhile.
a break from how my heart is feeling.
a break from the hectic schedule.
a break from the expectations of life.
a break from trying to hide how i really feel.
a break from crying, especially.

i have no idea if it was right or wrong.
but i guess i just am nice enough to fulfill what i promised.
despite everything.

came across a shit loads of conversation on skype.
it is just like refreshing every detail of everything.
no wonder people always say that, memories haunt.
seriously.

big heart, big hugs.
xoxo, thieny

2011-10-14T10:10:00.003+08:00

Oh well,

headed to Timbre last night with felly.
it was good.
the ambience, the beer, the pizza.
i love moments like these.
chill.
each of us had 3 pints of beer.
talked a shit loads of stuffs.
but its nice. really.

Capella tonight for jj's birthday.
Happy birthday JJ the Jetplane. :)
have a blast tonight!

maybe you are right.
im always proud, too proud to admit.
i always say the opposite of how i really feel.
fearing of the other party's response.
That's me, that's a lion.
without pride, just what am i?
but i have already said my piece.
at least i did it.
that was the best of my pride, that i can put down.
take care.
strangers, yet so familiar.

ke xi bu shi ni, pei wo dao zui hou.

xoxo, thieny

2011-10-13T14:10:00.002+08:00

xoxo,thieny

2011-10-12T22:43:00.001+08:00

I SWEAR, I NEED A WARM HUG NOW.
or maybe, a beer will do as well.

keeps repeating in my mind.

xoxo.thieny

2011-10-12T14:26:00.002+08:00

the very next time, i will not get myself in such a situation.
i will not get my heart broken.
i will not be involved in an ambiguous situation again.
Cause the one who is really hurt in the end, is me.

and no matter what promises was made before.
I might be too proud to say certain things, faking that im okay.
i appreciate everything.
and i appreciate you knowing.

GOODBYE.

2011-10-11T22:28:00.000+08:00

I WILL FIGURE MY WAY OUT EVENTUALLY.
xoxo

2011-10-11T22:20:00.003+08:00

Mundane.

Oh well, went over to NTU last night to play bball.
NICE.

woke up with the body aching like fever is approaching. DAMN.

work has been fine, but taxing.
SCHOOL is boring maximum.
endure.

On a side note, fridays are normally spent at WINEBAR.
saturday and sunday are stay home days.

Friends of different social circle.
SERIOUSLY?. its just the effort made.
or rather, the effort you are willing to make.
I am not very much different from you, and why do different social circle sounds a little sarcastic?
So now it's clear, very clear isnt it? The way that things should be.
oh well.
a little too late. HAHA.

anyway, one more month.
you are coming back home soon, pooh.
such a mixed feeling.

i yearn so much for a getaway soon.
alone.

xoxo,thieny

2011-09-21T12:21:00.003+08:00

Just what is the complication?
anyway, i was the one who got myself in such a situation.
OH WELL.

had a really good chat last night.
load off my mind.
anger, frustration, care, concern.
everything.

much appreciated.
xoxo, thieny

2011-09-14T12:01:00.001+08:00

You changed, I changed, we all changed.
Everything changed.

2011-09-13T14:14:00.002+08:00

Nah, not a good week.
cases rejected, tiring much.
oh well, work harder then,
what doesnt kill me, makes me stronger.

cant wait for dinner tmr with the loved ones.
:)

today is 13sept.
yeah, memories overflow.
how are you,
do you still remember?
remember how we first started?
i do, i remember every details.
i miss the happy moments alot.

Amos told me,
im on my way to recovery.
but there is this part of me, that is empty.
MAYBE. no idea.

been partying alot.

time to settle down, really.

its not that it isnt love that doesnt hurts, it is just that memories are the one that kills.

xoxo,thieny

2011-09-12T11:36:00.002+08:00

HEY MONDAY,
you are blue.

ended last week with partying on fri and sat.
tell me im not a clubber. really.

i have been listening to adele's song.
SOMEONE LIKE YOU.
meaningful much.
brings back memories as well.

oh well, spykids last night was good.
thanks buddy for the treat :)

never mind, i'll find someone like you.

2011-09-09T13:01:00.003+08:00

headed down to butter with fav girl-felly.
pretty good night, saw a number of familiar faces.
good ol' days.

went back to MBS to wash up, then to work right after.
went for some BNI session with Derrick.
Business Networking. kinda impressive. the business owners, the experts in their own fields. Most of all, expanding contacts.
But, its freaking too early to network at 7.30am.
HOLY.

went for the lion king musical, - the courtesy of the company :)
enjoyed myself. the show was fantasic. AWESOME.
catch it if you have not.

gonna meet rebecca for dinner,
cant remember when was the last time we met.
looking forward!!

thanks for the care and the concern, it was pretty much appreciated.
take care dearest over there.
see ya soon, when you are back.
you have my back, no matter what.
budds :)

xoxo,thieny.

2011-09-05T11:28:00.002+08:00

Oh well, monday Blues again.

Had a hell of a night on friday with the lovelies- amanda and fell.
went to zouk of a couple of drinks.
partied the night away.

everything was in place.

a good start for the month.

well, went for a wedding dinner yesterday.
more like a family gathering, nice.
drinking alcohol and sharing the past.
totally love family gathering like this.:)

friends dont take advantage, right?

2011-09-02T12:06:00.002+08:00

Partied with the TEH MOO MOO on monday.
together with a new lady that i get to know- Fiona :)
damn nice and fun,
beside the fact that i lost one side of my heels,
i went home barefooted.

Nonetheless, thanks to one who came to my rescue.
who abandon his sleep to make sure im home safely.
who entertained my blabbering of nonsense that night.
thanks. really, big thanks :)

im sorry for the trouble caused.
im sorry for the nonsense said.
i admitted something finally, but you can dont believe in it.
I was the one who broke our promise first. so you have every right to dont believe what i said when i was drunk.
take care, the one who used to give alot, the one who came :)

On a side note,
hey you, yes you.
im glad you found someone in life.
im glad to see you much happier :)
like i said, i will still be your friend, no matter what :)
all the best to the one who was once so close.
the only thing i want, is you to be happy :)

2011-09-02T11:50:00.002+08:00

My bday celebration ended. :)
But i didnt have enough time to blog.
AUGUST wasnt the best month really. but it made me realize alot of things.
I have lost, I have gained, I learn.

Let me start with: 12 AUGUST.
celebrated with the balling bunch, Jordon, YH, Rat, ADEL, BB, Weixuan, Kenneth
at 2D1N SOJU BANG for bbq. NICE and cheap. :)
then to jab1 for drinks.
Thanks for the treat people, appreciate it :)

13 AUGUST:
celebrated it with the usuals at SPIZZA the ZOUK,
joc, chiu hao, parry, ws, frank, pearl, summer.
all in all who came, who was there.
Much loves.
Thanks for the perfume, and the presence.
let all bygones be bygones, and let us start a whole new chapter.

15 AUGUST:
Had a nice chocolate buffet with my dear buddy terence:)
friends for four years :)
thanks for the awesome treat, and the ride home.
much loves. :)

16 AUGUST:
had a nice dinner with my dearest cousins.
thanks for the sakae and the watch :)
i love you girls. many.

17 AUGUST:
had dinner with the bunch i love most.
Fel Ak qiao timo ter eke
at TONKICHI.
thanks for the presents. and the companion.
it was jab nonetheless after dinner.
almost die.
cried. whats new?
Oh and not to mention, thanks my dearest colleauges for the instant camera, and the lunch :)

so all in all, these mark the end of my 21st.
appreciate alot. and yea.
this year was the best and the worst.

thanks to all who stay, and to all who love. :)

2011-08-11T14:32:00.003+08:00

deleted me away from all social network platforms.
"you will be back" you promised. such an empty promise.
go , just go. i wont deprive you of the chance to let go.
so go.
even if it takes losing me as a friend, just go.

Use this chance to grow. someone said.
true. i hate you for being so heartless. so extreme.
but im glad on the other hand too.
this might be better for us.
we have to stop this vicious cycle.

i am sad, not because i lost a lover, but because i lost a friend.
a good friend whom i can talk to.
a good friend to me, even when we were together.
a good friend whom i can always cry to.
losing a friend is like, having someone to walk out of your life for good.
it hurts.

Take care in all you do.
i do not know if you are able to see this,
but, the friendship that we had, the love that we shared.
THANKS.
close to heart, the memories.
goodbye, A.

2011-08-04T14:21:00.002+08:00

Awesome night last night.
:)
kinda miss zouk. hence there i was yesterday. :)

Life is good.
BIG HEART.
always bear that in mind, BIG HEART.

i promised i will be here, whenever you need me, but the past, will be the past, no one shall mention. :)

2011-07-28T15:48:00.002+08:00

things changed in just mere one week.
13july marks our anniversary.
18july marks the end of our journey.

Unexpected much i would say.
your taste, maybe damn cannot.
ive cried, gone crazy, lose myself.
its time i pick myself up and walk on.

you were someone so important,
that i never want to lose.
you were someone so close to heart.
my bestfriend and my lover.
and here i bid that goodbye.

your words touched my heart,
i wanna stick with you forever.
but i know, its not what you want now.
i will not wait, neither will i leave.

last night chat was good,
i really miss that.
i can always still chat with you,
maybe i just need to catch a hold on myself.
the reminiscing of our past, was heartwarming and yet heartbreaking.
sorry for all the mistakes made.
but actually, im willing to give me all just for us back.
really,

all the tears we shed, the smiles we shared, the love we had.
close to heart, always.
I LOVE YOU, always did, and always will.
trust me, you will have my back, always.

i bid my love goodbye.
*i want you home too.

2011-07-15T11:01:00.002+08:00

Back to work,
lost a lil motivation here and there.
need to brace myself up again, against all odds.

random thoughts running through my mind.
im here fighting for my own career, my own education.
some has already embarked on their second journey in life- family.
congrats dearest friend, though we have drifted so far apart, im still here wishing you a blissful marriage and a healthy and chubby baby. :)
seeing the happy faces of them, makes my day.
committing at such a young age, must be tough.
however when i see people getting married, i feel alil fear.
Commitment issues with my ownself?
perharps.

can i wear the gown, but forget about the commitment?

xoxo

2011-07-05T11:39:00.003+08:00

Back from Launnie and Melbourne.

Missing the club in Melbourne, the pancakes at Stokers.
Back to work. Lost a bit of motivation. Need to reconstruct myself back.
Yeap, I can do it.

School is going to start in 2 weeks time.
Not exactly hyped up or something, but it will be good, i believe.

Need to start exercising.
Stamina dropped like mad.

So many things to rant about, so many feelings to be shared.

Someone told me, i dont know so much about a relationship and its true.
I was so demanding, so insistent, that i forget love is a give and take game.
I expect trust, but i dont assure.
I simply just want things to go my way, but I never think in other's shoe.
and what someone said really hit me hard, same age but clearly, your maturity is so much more.

Time alone is good, to figure things out myself. to reflect.

you are my most beautiful memory :)

2011-06-25T21:26:00.005+08:00

Hey peeps,
Been such a long time since i blogged. :)

Im at Launceston now with ALFRED KEM :)

I arrived on Friday 24 June.
the weather was kinda windy and cold.
Thanks for fetching me at the airport

after that we went to the City at Launceston for some shopping.
nothing much though. Then it was dinner at Spuds-the bakes potato.
I had the Mexicana-chilli cheese beef sauce, and his was ROMA-bolognese with triple cheese.
Then it was Ice cream and some groceries shopping at KMART.

Day 2: woke up at 8am, the weather was frigging cold. imagine when you speak, there is smoke!. we drove down to Hobart. The scenery along the road toward Hobart was breath-taking.
The two hours drive was tiring but definitely worth it, just for the beautiful scenery.
We went to walk around Salamanca Market. Alot of local delicacies- Honey, rock candies, chocolates. Then it was lunch on board a yacht. The fish and cheap was good, so was the oysters. AND THE NICEST SCALLOP PIE AT ROSS TOWN BEFORE WE REACH HOBART.
dinner was just a simple home cooked meal :)

Oh and not to mention:

The awesome summit at MOUNT wellington. the sides of the road were filled with some snow.
the summit was near 0degree. but the view of the whole Hobart definitely worth the cold and long car ride. :)

To be continued for my Launceston-Tasmania journey. :)
a whole different experience. :)

2011-06-21T11:19:00.001+08:00

all that i ever wanted.

tell me why it hurts still when im so bent on letting it go.
tell me why i feel like shit when being insulted.

all i ever wanted was just that lil bit of freedom, lesser questions. more love.

2011-05-26T17:03:00.003+08:00

LOVE.
4 letters with a hell loads of meaning.

One more month to aussie. see you there, my beloved.
how to react, what should i say. keeps running in my head.
I loved you, but i hate you when you start your oh so correct values.

I am indecent, if you insists on that, JUNE will be the last.

Anyway, bought a Agnes b ring at isetan private sale yesterday :)
Love it.
wanna get a pair of ear studs soon.
Cut my hair yesterday at Next at ION, now my hair looks puffier and thicker, NICE.

Sales this month, CUI.
damn it.
Chiong NEXT MONTH. stop dwelling.

Family, CUI.
go and complain to grandma, and got kor and me into trouble.
Thanks to these kind of parents.
ONE LAST FUCKING CHEEBYE TIME, we are not your ATM, please stop bumming around, faggots.
no money, dont go drink,
no money stay at home.
no money, go work.
simple.

tears. couldnt stop flowing
disappointment.
you said, you feel inferior, i am able to get everything done on my own, like i dont need you.
like you are not important, you feel useless.
SO work hard.
i dont want to be so dependant on myself. i feel tired. but i have no choice.
I dont have parents who will give up their all for me.
I dont have parents who can bring me to school.
All i have is, 2 pairs of hands at home, asking for money.
I am tired of all these shit, BUT, i have to live through it, live with it, so why not make the best out of it.
some times all i ever need is just a shoulder for me to lean on, someone to pamper me.

you dont get it, words you said, as though we are still the same. but we are not the same anymore.

2011-05-24T11:31:00.002+08:00

Insulted, yet again.
what is going through your mind when you said, i am indecent.
you claimed its not cheap slut. but dear, the meaning is so close.
heart broken into pieces even after we broke up.
holding on to the glimpse of hope that you will stop all these insult, treat me like a girl.
you know im short tempered, easy to coax. just a sorry will do.

June, is coming.
Aussie here i go, but the excitement is not there. decision has to be made by then.
seeing you, more of afraid than happy i guess. afraid of being insulted again.
SO MUCH FOR YOUR HEARTFELT WORDS DEAR.

starting to get really affected. super affected, yet you ignorant man-whore.

because the heart get broken over and over again, and maybe only me, can get myself out of misery.

2011-05-19T11:23:00.002+08:00

Im Prolly the Most Indecisive Person Ever.

Anyway, celebrated Ek'e's 21st at Reddot. It was just a mini gathering.
Got her a Tiffany and Co necklace with qiaoey. glad that ek'e loves it :)

Gonna celebrate Felly's 21st at 1 Altitude later this evening. But i am still down with flu.DAMN.

I am on 2days MC, i have no idea what am i doing in the office now. just to follow up with the clients. I am going to go back to rest SOON.

The atmosphere here, AWKWARD, but fuck it man,

I must have done something good in my past life, that i got you to be there over in AUSSIE to take care of me, that i have some other people in SG to look after that. That i have friends who cared, though they drifted away from me. that i know, i am not alone. i can still turn to people around me.
xoxo

2011-05-05T14:21:00.002+08:00

SORRY, for the harsh and heartless conversation
Lead a fulfilling life without me, and find someone who deserves more than me.
You were great, but we are different.
Face it, we can never go back to where we were.
Im good now, alone. perfectly fine.

Take Care, Thanks.

2011-04-29T18:02:00.002+08:00

maybe you do.
maybe they were right about you,
they were right about me.

leave, let me know.
so that i can prepare. prepare to stick the heart back.

time, is all i need,
to find myself back,
to find the committment after what happened.

till then, we'll see.
xoxo

2011-04-25T14:38:00.002+08:00

Partying was good on saturday night at HELIPAD.
cheers to adeline. xoxo.

more of this to come, i love the hang out session.

unexpected i would say. face it, i was never good enough.

xoxo

2011-04-06T13:27:00.001+08:00

time to be a little less submissive and more defensive.

tear me down, all you can.
hurt at me, all you want.
i am stronger and more capable then you think i am.

xoxo,xt

2011-04-05T16:40:00.001+08:00

The awesome people at work.
Friday Night 1st APRIL 2011 at WAVVE :)

2011-03-24T10:07:00.001+08:00

2011-03-14T16:44:00.001+08:00

Now, Take me somewhere that there are only smiles.
Now, Take me away from all the fears.

Take me to where I belong.

xoxo

2011-03-08T11:13:00.002+08:00

I know that i havent been blogging since the DAY 3, thats because we have a space of our own to update only for us to read.

Very nice gathering with the bunch yesterday over dinner at SUSHI TEI followed by chilling session at TCC. The laughters they always temporary distract me from the stress at work, the problems i faced.

Still the same, cannot wait for JUNE to be here. I know life is abit boring now, i know i havent been clubbing and all. the only reason is, WORRY, worry that he might be worried. Truthfully, i feel bored sometimes, and i feel that, as i grow older, the people i meet or get to know in clubs are different, they are older than me, we chill together, we interact, as we never know when in our careers we might need their help, so clubbing is actually a good form of networking especially to me as i do sales.
But i know this point will never be justified by you. BUT it really widens my network, i never know if their parents want to refinance their house or if there are better job offers out there.

Yes, talking about work, I enjoy helping people and all, I enjoy doing mortgage or rather my duties as a mortgage broker. However i know clearly that, one day i will leave for the banks, for better offer. it is just a matter of time. The company is good, my colleauges are loves, my bosses are great. BUT.... the uncertainty on my mind. Oh, and i do have the intention to take insurance papers, as it will be a tool for me. so why not?!

There is alot of things i want to do, but i do not have enough initiative to push myself. SUCKS to be me at times actually.

On a side note, I miss my past personalities when i do not throw temper that often, when vulgarities will not always be hurled. Can that ANG SIOW THIEN come back, so its the people its the life its me, who changed me.

xoxo

2011-02-16T13:16:00.002+08:00

DAY 3:

This is like a daily blog. to record abt me and you, how i feel when you were overseas.
Thanks for calling me , to listen to how i felt abt school about work.
Thanks for making me feel safe even when you are not in SINGAPORE :)

Really hope that you can come back fast. come back soon.
I dont need this lesson to learn about how much we loved.
Baby, thanks for letting me throw small temper.
For taking belief that you are in SINGAPORE. That because you are sleeping/ schooling/ soccering thats why you are not able to meet me. Thats why you can only whatsapp me.
I know that im living in self-denial. But i do need this self-denial to bring myself through.

I tried to keep myself busy, I tried to bury myself with work, but when nightfall, i get snapped back to reality. tears will roll like there is no tomorrow.
This is hard, really. But i know it will get better, you will come back soon.

I know that the convocation is just next year July, but when i cant get myself up.
I do miss you and the pooh bear over there. I feel lousy when you are all alone, no one by your side and yet you are brave, whereas for me, when i have family and friends here, i still cry. :(

Come back soon, we will start our next chapter together, we will never leave each other behind again.

xoxo,
your love.

2011-02-15T11:11:00.002+08:00

DAY 2:

Got locked out of the house yesterday for forgetting to bring the keys. SO CLEVER.
luckily baby wasnt asleep yet, he accompanied me till i got home.
Thanks dear.

I didnt imagine that, this departure hurts us so much,
and how we realize we have taken each other for granted.
how much those stuff you got for me cant replace your presence.
I need you alot so much that i hope this is a dream.
I know its the same for you. you cried, it made me cry harder.
your care and concern.

Love, take care. and Love, please be strong.

2011-02-14T16:05:00.002+08:00

Day One after Baby Left:

It wasnt easy, definitely NOT.
i havent really slept. I am always waiting for him to csll once he arrive at Melbourne, then Launcheston.

I couldnt focus my mind on work today no matter how hard i tried.
Knowing that he cried cause he misses us too much, made me cry even harder.

I cannot imagine how he is over there. The weather is so cold, and he cant handle coldness at all, plus, he will cough when its too cold. The place and people are strangers to him, i hope he can adapt well.

I hope this 1.5 years pass like ZOOM. I hope June come faster so that i can fly over to see him. I hope Nov come even faster cause he will be flying back.
I hope one day i open my eyes and he is right beside me.

The pillow is a gift from him to keep me company when i miss him. and its very very nice. :)

I have no idea what im talking about. i think more like my tears and emotions are controlling me now.

I will chin up. and I will be fine. I am still me. :)

you: please take good care of yourself, please do not skip meals.
please study hard. please do not give up on anything. I am here and will be here, just a call or whatsapp away from you. I now it sounds near, but it is pretty far.
Me and you at two different countries, parted by the seas, can only be reached by planes. But i believe our heart are one, and we will be.
Happy Valentines My Love.

2011-01-31T09:44:00.002+08:00

IT'S going to be CNY soon
SO, HAVE A HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR PEEPS.

tentatively 12 more days to love's departure.
:(

alright, ive got a new set of nails. gel overlay with gold and silver tone.
I have got myself 3 sets of dress, a pair of heels and a kate spade bag.
TELL me im wasting money.

there are alot of things on my mind now, and how should i put it across?

ANYWAY, went to zouk on saturday to celebrate pi-pearl-pearly's birthday.
HAPPY SWEET 18th dear.
haha.

thats about it, oh and please stop raining, you are making me falling asleep in the office.

2011-01-21T10:53:00.004+08:00

AND i read from MAD'S blog:

" IF HE STILL SEES THE BEAUTY IN YOU AND STILL FALLS MORE IN LOVE WITH YOU,
AFTER SEEING YOUR WEIRD EXPRESSIONS, YOUR UNUSUAL LAUGH, YOUR CONSTANT BITCHINGS, YOUR UGLY DAYS, YOUR PIG OUT DAYS, THEY WAY YOU TOSS AND TURN IN YOUR SLEEP, YOUR STUPID JOKES, THE WAY YOU ASK QUESTIONS ABOUT THINGS YOU SHOULD ALREADY KNOW THE ANSWERS TO BUT HE ANSWERS THEM ANYWAYS,YOUR OBSESSIONS WITH STRANGE THINGS, YOUR RANDOM SOUNDS AND YOUR IMMATURITY. THEN, YOU ALREADY KNOW THIS IS THE BOY."

and i know that you are :)
thanks for the spaghetti in the morning. thanks for tolerating shits from me.
Thanks for making me laugh when i feel so moody over nothing.

THANKS <3

2011-01-16T23:10:00.002+08:00

AGENDA FOR THE DAY:

Visited my dearest GREAT grandma at the home for the aged and sick.
the sight was heart-wrenching.

went to the temple at sengkang with bro and grandma :)

dinner at grandma's place

my heart hurts towards words that you said. I never thought that you were that heartless. THANKS MOM for showing me the true colours of you. if money was all that matters to you rather than us, I guess why i dislike you that much from young.
Dont compare us with others, think of what you had done for us. NOTHING MUCH besides giving birth to us. We were brought up by granny instead of you. all you did was just hitting us when you are unhappy. Same to you dad, your gambling habit is a cause for all the quarrels as usual. USELESS is the word to describe both of you.
You asked us to move out so that you can rent our rooms out. THANKS like i said, i didnt expect all the words and intentions you put across to us. GOODLUCK.

2011-01-10T12:03:00.008+08:00

Hi people,

Im back from CRUISE @ SUPERSTAR VIRGO with my babes and their boyfriend.
This trip was planned by MAD to celebrate JUN MING'S birthday.
Birthday Boy, I hope you had a blast and a memorable one. :)

Casino was cool, my virgin try at the casino.
I guess it was beginner's luck that baby and i won 600 in total :)
BACARAT is addictive.

BREAKFAST LUNCH DINNER was all BUFFET, the thought of Buffet now makes me puke.
we had alot of food, it's tasty BUT it's too much.

DAY ONE:

at the SINGAPORE CRUISE CENTRE.

Our Room, a pity that it doesnt face the sea view.

Dinner at the chinese restuarant there, as well as HAPPY BDAY JM.

The night view after dinner as well as a basketball game at the court there :)

After that, it was casino time, then SWEET DREAMS.

DAY TWO:

6.30am, baby woke me up cause he wanted to watch the sun rise.
however there wasnt any :(
but the view was beautiful:

after that we went back to the cabin to catch a wink then to the casino again, then dinner.

baby told me this: i dont wanna get you a normal necklace i wanna get you the angel pendant cause it will protect you while im away in aussie.
Upon hearing that my tear almost drop.

DAY THREE:

HOME SWEET HOME :)

Dear, i hope you enjoyed yourself. LOVE YOU :)

this love was always true :)

2011-01-06T09:24:00.003+08:00

Hi People,

HAPPY NEW YEAR :)

Alright, during NYE the usual had a ala carte buffet at BAN HENG RESTUARANT,
the dishes were good., not bad for the price we are paying.
21.90 after GST.

After that, joel ws maddonna and me, we headed down to EAST COAST for drinks, Kai Wah and Andrew joined us there. WE had fun, like dancing in the middle of the SCRUFFY MURPHYS, then we headed to beach CAVANA for beer.
Then we headed home.

ITS a whole new year, a new beginning,
A time to set your own goals and target.
A time to work hard on your career.
A time for better things to fall into place.
I embrace this year with hope, for my family and my career,
I hope that this year will be good for the boy who is going oversea.

MY new year resolutions:
- TO HIT MY TARGET EVERY MONTH
- TO GROW AS A PERSON
- TO GO BACK TO SCHOOL
- TO WORK AS HARD AS I PARTY
- TO LOVE THE PEOPLE WHO LOVE ME
- TO HELP MY DAD WITH HIS DEBTS HOPEFULLY

xoxo, people, will upload when im back from CRUISE :)

2010-12-25T01:21:00.002+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS, xoxo.

I had a wonderful christmas eve though i only slept for 3 hours.
Drinks with the awesome 9-6pm family after work.
BEER in the afternoon is definitely WEIRD. LOL.
Dinner with baby's family :)
then now i am, back at baby's home.
Contemplating to head own to terence's place. BUT baby is tired. :(
ME WANNA SPEND XMAS WITH MY BBGS.

its going to be a new year soon. LIKE ONE MORE WEEK?
i need to sit down and think of my new resolutions.
i need to get all excited for the cruise.
i need to plan something for my dear's departure to aussie.
i need to plan my career path and goals.
i need to....so many things.
and i need you :)

2010-12-22T17:13:00.002+08:00

ITS THE HOLIDAY SEASON AGAIN!!

ME for the MISSING IN ACTION one month plus:
Doing very well,
happy in my company, surrounded by great bosses and colleagues,
though, the stress is on my nerves.

The new year is approaching, looking back at this one year,
I feel like i have been losing myself in a way or another.
Im no longer the innocent or kind girl.
I have changed, and i know i dont like the me now.
but i never meant to hurt anyone, I am still me. Very me in certain aspects.

On a random note, I miss my bestfriend much,
I hope that she is doing very well.
she is the one person that doesnt has to see me, to know whats wrong,
same goes to Qiao and Mad,
They are the few that i will always turn to and always be there for.
I dont care what others might say about them, and I know we do bitch about each other, but deep down we care alot of each other.
So if you people just couldnt stand us and feel that we are such a hypocrite, then so be it, because you are not US.

The day is drawing nearer,
I dont even dare to count.
tears dropped, I dont bear.
I know people always say, i will not be able to wait till you are back,
THANKS to them, and for calling me friends, instead of encouraging they tried to bring us down.
F off you people, so what that we always quarrel, that i always scold
NI QING WO YUAN, if you do understand. if you guys are god damn free, just mind your own business.
And i am not driving at anyone, unless you have a guilty conscious.

Serena: I need to know why you love me. Dan: Because I do.

2010-11-11T16:59:00.001+08:00

LEO WOMAN
She will stand out of the crowd on the street. Leo woman normally
tall or rather tall. You will hardly see a short thick woman. When
she walks she walk like a queen, confident and does not look around,
though as if there is no one around her.

She will dress in her own style not according to fashion. She is
confident of what she choose to wear. Do not buy cheap cloths where
they sell in dozen for her as a gift, she will hate it. Also do not
buy cloths that do not reflect her confident personality. She likes
unique and strange cloths and accessories. Being different is what
she loves.

If you want to know her, take times and be patient because she is
selective about people she mingles with. She's open minded, but yet
she is not letting people get to close to her easily. She likes sweet
words and compliments, but not too much.

She smiles with anyone, but inside she thinks she is borne to be a
leader. She likes to be in control because it is in her nature
instinct. She is a graceful woman , and she has a magnetic charisma,
so expect tough competition.

She is a very proud person, so do not do anything to challenge her
confident. She can be mad and act like a hurricane, and later can be
like an innocent kitten, but do not fall for her O.K. She remembers
everything and likes to cherish her sweet memory, so if you find her
old photo albums with her ex-boyfriend or love letters that will make
you puke, take it easy. She is keeping her sweet memory does not mean
she still in love with the old fool, so you do not have to panic.

She will have many guys run after her, so if you have advantage of a
good x-udground family, or a famous last name, a successful career
then it's a plus. She hates to be poor and she thinks love will not
pay bills.

She is a sport type and love sports. If you want to date her, prepare
to spend big bugs, for your first dinner with her can not be a hot
dog stand, but better be the best place in town. She is a generous
person, so do not be surprise if she give you a gift more expensive
than what you gave her. She likes extravaganza, no cheap gift, no
cheap dinner please. Being poor or broke make her depress. If you do
not have lots of money, be creative and make your own gift for her.
It's unique quality and times spending making it for her is a big
deal. You can think economical, but do not be cheap.

2010-11-11T16:24:00.002+08:00

STRESS.
i need help and estrogen.
i need to feel happy.
sigh.

sometimes in the night, i feel alone.
i feel as though my world is crushing.
the stress im going through,
who can i turn to?.
it was never easy to handle.
nobody said it was.
i dont like the practical side of me, but the factors im facing with drove me to it.
i feel like im losing myself,
while fighting this long battle with reality and the world.

the things on my mind, i have no idea how to put it.
I want to share it with someone close - you,
but who will understand.
the tremedous stress im facing,
go away will you.
i look as though im fine,
lauging everyday.
deep inside me i know, I never was.
its just a facade front.

sometimes i hope i have the strength,
the luck to brave through all.
theres a part of me, i think,
i will never forgive you.
i care because you brought me to this world,
yet, i hate because you did not fulfill all.
please remember that, you somehow did not do what you should.
I know i shouldnt blame,
but tell me, then who should i blame.
the money spent on travelling, instead of my school fees,
leaving me fighting for my own education rights,
who should i blame?

if it takes all to go back to school,
i am really to do everything and anything just for the money to go back to school.

:(

2010-10-18T09:35:00.002+08:00

I WAS ONE STEP CLOSE TO MY MACBOOK. :(
im very upset, but babyboy, its not your fault

Mahjong-ed yesterday,
i feel like a zombie NOW.

Dearest gonna go for his interview later,
all the best babyboy :)
i think you will look damn handsome in your smart 4 :)

OH YA,
steamboat with the usuals on saturaday at turf city,
followed by holland v for chilling.
then HOME SWEET HOME
:)

2010-10-17T04:37:00.003+08:00

I FEEL LIKE GOING HOME NOW!!!
there is no air con in baby's room cause he fucking refuses to on it.
I CANT SLEEP WHEN IM HOT!.
what bullshit, air con will make him sick. zzz
SI BEI DU LAN NOW.
and baby said, ar bo you just sleep on the floor!

SERIOUSLY?!
i feel like shit. THANKS.

i feel the differences long ago. but why do we still hold on?

2010-10-15T07:34:00.002+08:00

HI GOOD MORNING!!!!!

im damn tired.
today is a bad day!,
i didnt bring my makeup kit home, now my face is naked.
im having hiccups, which boyfriend said its irritating!.
im wearing a piece of dress which i feel weird in.
and lastly, I WANT TO SLEEP.

2010-10-13T15:27:00.001+08:00

Kimmy left the company to CIMB.
all the best darling.
we will miss you :)

2010-10-08T09:10:00.002+08:00

A brand new chapter.

On my mind: confusion.
in my heart: complication.

thats all i can say.
All the good to you.
thanks, and i will miss US.

the rest on my livejournal.

wo de xin hen hen sui guo que bu hui wang.

2010-10-03T23:10:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BLESSED BIRTHDAY to, MR PARRY AND MR LIM WEI SHENG !!!

the dudes celebrated their 23rd Birthday at MBS.
"FORGET ABOUT YOUR BOYFRIEND AND MEET ME IN THE HOTEL ROOM"
the birthday boys, frankie, alfred and me went earlier in the afternoon.
SO, we managed to go to the SKYPARK SWIMMING POOL.
the view was majestic, and best of all, i feel so damn relaxed.
A good day of tanning and relaxation.

Dinner was at WARAKU-marina square.
then the rest joined us in the HOTEL ROOM.
drink and drink.
imagine 8 people squeezing on two single bed.
but luckily i managed to get a good spot for a GOOD REST!

booked out at 1pm today.
lunched at POPEYES-Singapore flyers.
then my house for MAHJONG.!!

Guys, i hoped you guys love the presents that we gave.
especially weisheng, hope you get your IPHONE 4 with that bit of help from us :)

Note: more pictures will be uploaded.

2010-09-25T11:33:00.001+08:00

Cut my hair again, AS USUAL.
but i still LOVE short hair. :)

Work ended at 7 plus yesterday, alot of work!
but its good, it means more BUSINESS.
After that, mad wanted to grab a lady's drink at WAVVE,
BUT, our dear BOSSES insisted that we should stay because the EVVO people are heading down because of US, or rather me, for what i OWE them.
ALL in ALL, its a good night.
HAVING such a BIG BIG family at work is COOL.
AND SURE, SUCH GOOD BOSSES :)

there are certain things that bothers me,
i just dont know how to put it.

note: I STILL NEED MORE LUCK :(

2010-09-19T16:47:00.002+08:00

A very well-behaved weekends.

DRINKS at wavve on friday.
SO FAR SO GOOD,
im enjoying work, the busy times made no excuses for other thoughts.

THOUGH, cant help it.
There are alot of inner feelings and words, I couldnt explain.

this post is just random.
I'm just ordinary.

2010-09-10T14:45:00.002+08:00

Work as usual,
closed my first deal yesterday.
CHEERS :)
had a water parade session with my lovely teammates and bosses :)
and as usual, IM ALWAYS UNGLAM.
plus finally met up with QIAO :)

I am not the girl you used to know,
or you never did know me deep enough.
I dont like to be controlled,
I love to have FUN.
THIS IS LIFE, isnt it?

as i grow older,
the things that are important become different.
my goals become different.
my social circle becomes older.
I dont see it as a bad thing,
Older people have more knowledge in EVERYTHING.
their perspective their drive, is AMAZING.
It is amazing to see how determine they are to reach their target.
and I aspire, to be like that.
MY SOLE FOCUS now is to crave something out of my career, the rest can wait.
and i fully understand TIME IS MONEY.
every more time i have, means a money making opportunity.

the things that ive met with,
the situation that i am in,
i believe no one will know,
and no one have any right to judge.
imagine, earning your own money just to study.
its not easy.
BUT, these things makes me grow.
GROW UP.
makes me realise how practical life is,
makes me wanna give my best.
SO people out there, please treasure when given a chance to pursue whatever you want.
dont take them for granted.

there are certain things that i just FUCKING DONT BOTHER that much anymore.
deem as you wish.

alcohol, MY BESTFRIEND

2010-08-18T23:17:00.003+08:00

MY BIRTHDAY :)

Celebrated with the pubors, on 14AUGUST2010,
dinner at BILLY BOMBERS - BUGIS,
then ZOUK.
there was an interchange of music, ZOUK played RNB,Phuture played TRANS,
weird FEELING.
overall a good night :)
and photos will be uploaded soon cause its with MADONNA. :)

MY ACTUAL DAY, 17AUGUST2010
my second day of work,
boss treated us to LUNCH at one of our company restaurant
WAVVY @ TOA PAYOH - ORANGETEE BUILDING
the price is very reasonable, and their burgers are nice :),
PLUS, nice ambience with a bar as well :)
ohh, and their lava cake is LOVE :)

AFTER THAT, for dinner, it was with LOVE :)
baby drove me to CHINA SQUARE for SUSHI TEI,
my all time favourite, JAP CUISINE,
SASHIMI !!! :),
after that it was MARQUEE, had erdinger there :)
then HOME we went. :)

Thank you, for everything,
for the gift,
for the dinner,
for the thought of doing,
for making me happy even though you know you will be poor after that,
for giving in to me.
AND, thank you all for the well wishes, and the gifts :)

2010-07-28T17:00:00.000+08:00

this is how i feel.
disappointed, upset.
still, im determined, cause i love you.

2010-07-27T04:58:00.002+08:00

UNIVERSAL STUDIO !!!
FUN indeed.
we played from 11.30 to 7pm :)
totally worth the $66 bucks.
THE EGYPT 4-STORIES high indoor roller coaster is NICE.
too bad the out-door one is still under maintenance.
SHREK in 4-d is a MUST CATCH.

this is LOVE :)

2010-07-23T09:25:00.002+08:00

3 words, eight letters, but with a very deep meaning.
does love withstand almost all obstacles?
does love only exist for one person?
does love change as fast as tornado?

how many truly know the meaning of love?.

I love you,
if not i wouldnt feel like crying upon hearing your decision,
BUT i cannot stop you,
it is your future, you have to take this step.
ALL i can do is to treat you better.
ALL i can do is to trust US.
maybe this is a chance for us, to work on OUR goal.

2010-07-18T03:17:00.003+08:00

i know i always say things out of anger.
i know ive always treat you bad.
i know im always the domineering one.
BUT thank god,
YOU LOVE ME SO.
i will, try my best, to treat you better, and work hard for our goal.

2010-07-16T14:57:00.000+08:00

TRIX,MAD,EKE,QIAO.
xoxo, and nothing will break us apart :)

2010-07-12T14:19:00.001+08:00

你不能说我没有爱过说我没等过难过.
你一直问我的心到底在不在问我怎能不遗憾就丢失了爱
而我的泪怎么就流下来.

2010-07-09T02:53:00.002+08:00

if i could, i want to change all that has happened,
if i could, i want to make all of you happy.
if i could, i never want to disappoint you.
if i could, i wished im alil stronger.
if i could, i wished im alil more mature.
if i could, i wished i was never here.
if i could, i wished to crave something out.
if i could, i wish to talk to you.
if i could, i wished that im not tearing when posting this.
if you can, dont give up on me.
because you were the one that loved me more than anyone else.

SOMETIMES I WISH, i can run away.
SOMETIMES I WISH, i dont exist.
SOMETIMES I WISH, i could just die.
SO THAT,
NO ONE needs to be heartbroken because of me,
NO ONE needs to cry because of me
MAYBE THEN, that is the best for everyone around me.

2010-07-09T02:43:00.003+08:00

ZOUK last night,
Had fun with the girls,
xoxo, fell and joc :)
i guess. we are the party people :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ADEL :)
i love you lots :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY THOMAS ONG too,
you have been a nice friend all these years and a very good pair of listening ear.
THANK YOU, hope you had a blast on your birthday, i know im abit late :(
anyway, really nice to have such a friend :)
and my SAKAE :)

note to self: words can be a form of danger.
love was never easy.
I have to learn, lots more to learn.

GROW UP ANG SIOW THIEN.

2010-06-12T20:46:00.002+08:00

JAB 1 with alot of people yesterday
12 elements with Jolyn Charlie Kok as well.
NICE, ME HEART THIS KIND OF PUBBING :)

Sometimes the questions are complicated and the answers are simple.

2010-06-06T17:04:00.002+08:00

SO FAR SO GOOD.
i hope things remain.
anyway, getting sick soon. SORE THROAT, HEADACHE. RUNNING NOSE :(

came across this song while browsing JOANNA'S blog,

我爱他轰轰烈烈最疯狂
我的梦狠狠碎过却不会忘
曾为他相信明天就是未来
情节有多坏都不肯醒来

我爱他跌跌撞撞到绝望
我的心深深伤过却不会忘
我和他不再属于这个地方

2010-05-30T13:22:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BDAY MISS TEH :)
love you deep deep.

anyway, war at home yesterday,
IM SICK AND TIRED,
you always misinterpret our words.
AND you are SO DAMN MATERIALISTIC.
does filial = MONEY?
bro and me dont know how to be your children.
YOUR EXPECTATIONS ARE BEYOND OUR CAPABLITIES.

:(

2010-05-24T23:43:00.001+08:00

Hello People,
so far NOT GOOD.

disappointments from my (supposed) closest.
my mum.
thanks for LOOKING down on me :)

2010-05-16T21:20:00.002+08:00

SHORT HAIR AGAIN.

anyway,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY E'KE TEO :)
have a blessed birthday.

REBEL with the girls , andrew and co. :)
and my goodfriend scolded me just because i reject the idea of DRINKING TEQUILA SHOTS with her, and she stomped off,
then scolded me outside rebel, HAHAHA.
you owe me a dinner for personal attack dear :)

im totally upset,
I STILL AM, but boyfriend told me this, you have to face things yourself, you have grown up.
I DID, i know, but i just needed a shoulder to cry on, and a companion at this point of time. I dont need any advices just a listening ear.
and MOST OF ALL, i needed you.
BUT, all i got was, me myself alone, and words cum actions undone.
this is sad.

all i ever needed was just your presence.

2010-04-26T10:05:00.003+08:00

ROCK CANDIES MAKE ME HAPPY, GUCCI MAKES ME FLY, im simple.
according to my boyfriend.

BUT IS THAT REALLY THE TRUTH?.

anyway someone told me, to mature with someone together as a couple - FACING PROBLEMS TOGETHER, GOING THROUGH THICK AND THIN.
to mature with someone as a friend - sort of letting go, stay as a friend, and running away.

I habour thoughts of the latter, but when i come to think of it, I CHOSE the first one.

giving it another try, it doesn't means that im not scared of falling, it's simply because, i couldnt go away that easily.

SOME MAY SAY, why sia?
i know i might have been hurt by words, but issues of the heart, I DONT KNOW HOW TO EXPLAIN.

thinking rationale, and acting rationale is two different thing. I choose to let my heart rule my actions.

2010-04-20T23:03:00.002+08:00

TO LOVE IS NEVER EASY, and if i love you so, would you love me back?.

BE loved, seems easier, but i always choose to love.
hard as it may seems, but at least I did not take things for granted.

Reading too much into a simple sentence,
was it because i fear humans' complexities, or was it because I'M not that simple?

TRUST, a simple word, with a simple meaning, yet so hard to achieve.
LEARN to trust people so that peopl will trust you,
what if, people trust me, more than i trust them?.

I'm just a simple girl, but my thinkings are very complicated, it was never easy to read me like a piece of paper, and my heart might not be as fragil as what it seems, i always have my ways at things, sometimes i might even be unreasonable, would you love me for who i am.

2010-04-20T02:33:00.001+08:00

Love looks not with the eyes, but with the mind;
And therefore is winged Cupid painted blind.

2010-04-17T18:57:00.000+08:00

NEW HAIR COLOUR :)

2010-04-16T00:16:00.002+08:00

i hope this rainbow stays.
and the rainbow is YOU.

chinese songs are just emotional,
listening to it makes me tear,
yet i love them so much.

looking at how many friends i have neglected,
i feel jealous when i could not join in their fun.
misunderstandings between us, i think it have ended?
but is it weird? cause we havent been hanging out for so long?
my long lost bff.
you know who you are. :)

2010-04-15T12:30:00.002+08:00

LOADS of incident, MY FAULT.
upsetting moments i wouldnt say it's not my fault entirely.
IM GLAD things are fine now. :)

went for a jog last night.
NICE JOG and NICE CATCHING UP.
everyone is doing well :)

my ankle is acting up again,
i cant even walk properly now.
shucks.

我努力想起你苦也没关系
用祝福和感激勇敢失去你
爱你这个决定
虽然艰辛
我不说对不起

a very nice song that i love.

2010-04-03T13:38:00.003+08:00

Haven't been updating for VERY LONG !!!
took leave on thursday for the ONE YEAR ONCE, QING MING.
went to guang ming shan with my family and relatives.
PAY RESPECT to my granddad.
then to YJC to collect my SGC, the meet baby in town for lunch cum alittle of walking around.
caught HOW TO TRAIN YOUR DRAGON, nice show, it's damn cute :)
i rate it , 3.5/5
thanks dear for your ROCK CANDY :)
anyway, was on a losing streak - baby and me.
BOO.

yesterday was GOOD FRIDAY !!
lazed at baby's place, then we went out to DOU FENG.
nice nice, i like . :)

2010-03-28T13:47:00.002+08:00

EVEN IF THE WHOLE WORLD COMES FALLING DOWN,
I KNOW, I HAVE YOU TO RELY ON. :)
AND I CALL THIS LOVE.

2010-03-13T15:20:00.002+08:00

always thought OFFICE job is SLACK !
but damn it, IM WRONG.
but im glad to work for SAFRA TOA PAYOH, the people there are very nice :)
and they taught me alot,
thank god :)
STILL, work is TIRING,
weekends are LOVE :)

happy six month-niversary dear :)

2010-03-04T18:38:00.003+08:00

LAST WED on the 24th,
headed to zouk to celebrate BEN'S birthday :)

midway after zouk, i headed down to REBEL to meet the girls. :)
had FUN :)
then baby and the rest came awhile later to find me at rebel
XOXO. :)

anyway, shall upload abt THAILAND SOON!!! stay TUNE :)

2010-02-23T23:11:00.000+08:00

love is mixture of EVERYTHING.
i just LOVE you simply :)

2010-02-22T23:26:00.004+08:00

SUNDAY:
went to meet wei han in the afternoon for lunch at ishi mura.
Nice talking to you dude, time really flies, we have been friends for SEVEN years :)
after lunch, met joel then headed to town for some WINDOW SHOPPING. :)
before heading down to find dear at liang court, joel brought me to his friend's restuarant at LUCKY PLAZA, its a filipino restaurant, THE FUNNY THING IS, its his family business, but the entire family is singaporean and CHINESE.
after that, went down to find baby, had DINNER at BOTEIYU, a japanese restaurant specialising in OKOS.

the food wasnt that fantastic, it's too salty for me.

MONDAY:
went to meet my dearest cousin at town after my interview,
then meet baby after his school for dinner at SAKAE, since we crave for sushi.

i always order SALMON DON, cause i simply LOVE salmon sashimi, it's HEAVEN to me :)
baby tried the salmon wafu pasta, NOT BAD.:)
home sweet home :)

i can't wait for thailand, then again, my results are coming out, and im really nervous, baby passed his, GOOD JOB :)

2010-02-20T00:45:00.002+08:00

CHU YI - first day of CNY at my place :)

daddy and mummy :)

my dearest grandma :)

those who were present before heading to third granduncle's place :)

the ladies :)

2010-02-19T18:15:00.004+08:00

HELLO PEOPLE, its still CNY, how are things going?

anyway, on chu san - the third day of CNY,
baby went over to my place for bai nian, then we went over to his sister's place for lunch, the food cooked were pretty nice.
after that, baby and i went down to SUNTEC,
caught a movie- valentines day.
its pretty hilarious, yet touching.
NICE movie :)
before that we had dinner at a SUNDANESE restaurant, and the food was awesome :)

thanks dear.
after our DATE, we went over to kai wah's place, and it's gambling again.

on CHU SI- the fourth day of CNY,
baby, his bro, nephew and i , had lunch at a thai restaurant at golden mile.
the tom yam soup is VERY TASTY :)
my all time favourite :)

met up with felicia, bear and vincent at night. we went to chill at alot of places,
and we laughed our guts out.
THANKS BEAR for the ride and the trip :)

YESTERDAY: went over to jolyn place for dinner, steamboat to be exact,
then it's another round of insane gambling.
LOST 50 . :(
its okay. luck will get better :)

top-notch girlfriend? i wouldnt admit.
i'm imperfect everyone is, but we all have to grow in our relationship together with our partners.
and so long as 100% effort is put in, there is nothing to regret in the end.

2010-02-16T00:51:00.007+08:00

HAPPY ROAR YEAR :)

let me start from CHU XI, the day before chinese new year :)
went over to my cousin's place for dinner.

met baby after that, was supposed to go straight to weisheng house for Mahjong,
but he insisted that i should go home and put my things, and this the the exact actual reason for his insistence:

a surprise for me on Vday :)
thanks baby, for your sincerity, to even contact my bro :)
thanks for everything :)

CHU 1, the first day of chinese new year:
in the morning, my aunt and uncles came over to my place, then we went over to our third granduncle's house.
before that, i went over to baby's place to bai nian :)
after my visiting, its darryl's house with the usuals

CHU 2. second day of chinese new year:
visiting at my ah yi place, then it's my grand aunt's place :)

this year has been a good start for me, WINNINGS OF 70 BUCKS.
i hope the luck lasts :)

Your's truly wishes everyone a HAPPY ROAR YEAR, with all the GOOD things coming. :)

2010-02-13T00:10:00.000+08:00

MAHJONG!!!
moolah come come.

2010-02-10T12:09:00.002+08:00

Valentines is round the corner, this time round, colliding with CHINESE NEW YEAR.

for my past valentines, i have been with my friends,
clubbing and drinking,
this year round it's different, at least, i have my baby boy with me :)

For past years, i have been receiving flowers, rarely roses, mostly daisy.
apparently, my favorite is BLUE ROSES.
and bears, sometimes chocolate.
But what would touched me most will be, a properly planned date, with surprises, and sincerity.
MOST OF ALL, UNIQUE.
like what jolyn said, sometimes the simplest person might not be the easiest to please.
and,I never like to go on date with guys unless im attached.
because to me, its a day to spend with either your good friends, or your love.

Blogged about Valentines because, the guys were talking about it yesterday at Keith's place.
Boon Huat and Weisheng are trying to squeeze out juicy ideas.
AND, i see their sincerity :)
GOOD JOB GUYS.
nevertheless, im envious. :)

and whats in store FOR ME?
something, i hope.

2010-02-08T23:40:00.001+08:00

nope, im not, not expecting.
I HOPE.

2010-02-08T00:50:00.002+08:00

REUNION DINNER TODAY!!! :)
you guys must be wondering that it's still early right?!
BUT NOT FOR MY EXTENDED FAMILY!!
grandma decided to have an early dinner as my dad will be busy during chinese new year's eve.
:)

BUFFET for dinner,
it was simple AWESOME,
curry chicken, nian gao, spinach with mushroom and abalone, batter prawns, black pepper fish, crab, and herbal soup.
NOT TO FORGET, ALCOHOL!
beers, wines, moscato, liquor.
AND OUR USUAL, BLACK JACK.
simply the feel for new year!!!

anyway, almost everyone turned up :)
its ALOT of people, really alot.
the house is filled with PEOPLE.
KIDS, ADULTS.

PLUS, we watched video that is video-ed 22 years ago!
and its HILARIOUS!!!
plus, I SEE AH GONG TOO,
he looked so happy, so nice,
a sudden gush of emotions went through me that moment,
i feel sad that i dont have the chance to see him :(
and, DADDY LOOKS EXACTLY LIKE HIM !!
then , its home sweet home :)

always love this kind of gathering, the joy and the laughter :)

2010-02-05T00:13:00.001+08:00

DAY OUT WITH BABY TODAY :)
KENNY ROGERS :)
then bus-ed back to work :)

you read me like a piece of plain paper